day 4 - patch 4 - some hours are better than others

If to stop smoking is to make a person feel better, I don’t feel so well. Maybe this is all part of the withdraw, I wake feeling sick in the morning and hardly do I feel happy, excited or being my (usual) self. Lack of energy is also on the list of what’s changed.

After eating, riding in the car, being online and during breaks at work have been the hardest moments over the last 4 days. I’ve been trying to go to places where smoking isn’t allowed, like stores, but there’s only so long I can afford to be away from home.

I have so many great friends standing behind me and telling me that I’m doing great, I still can’t get over the fear that I may be disappointing them because I feel so much like I’m going to fail.